Past 3 months

Finally, I gone thru the first 3 months of job.

Should I call is as probation period?

Did I consider pass for those period?

To be honest,

I not sure yet. hahahahahahahhahaha

Alright. back to the topic.

This post just a random post of the past 3 months.

The kind of proper job unlike those time internship.

You aren't work for only 3 months then leave the company.

At the same time,

this is the first office job after I graduate.

Most of people said that first job is very important.

Should be choose wisely, consider well before you accept the offer.

I am a newbie,

a totally super duper fresh graduate who join the company.

一個什麼都不會的小屁孩

I did a lots

a lots

a lots

a lots of mistake.
I already could not count how much time I saying 

the word of  "sorry" and "不好意思".
At the same time,
I keep thinking of a mind that
in their heart might
thinking that what am I so stupid
why ever they hire this kind of people like me.


I ever struggling of
did I make a good choice by accept the offer
from the beginning?
Do I did a great choice for myself?
Even though
I understand that I'm the one who said yes
therefore me only the one who choose to accept those challenges
but somehow human being is so so complicated.
The brain, the mind
keep turning around.
I not even struggling for once time.
My buddy told me that try find happiness during your work
There was always a thing you can be happy with.
My dad also told me that
do things slow doesn't big matter,
the most important is doesn't make mistake.
but guess what,
I even do things slowly and mistake a lots.
That period of time really get myself
and push myself in a hard time.



I do appreciate so much those little small help
while I face the hard time.
Every single little things does help me a lots.
Those kind words
Those little small of add oil
The short vacation
the moment.




I understand all the theory, all the rights or wrongs.
but I could not understand myself by doing a lots mistake.
In my deep heart feel sorry of everyone,
but this doesn't means anything.
I telling myself by showing action
by proof to others
I CAN DO IT.
I don't want myself ever said sorry or excuse to anyone.

And day by day ever,
it finally comes to December.
The last month of year 2017.
Oh great, I been works for 3 months dyyyyyyyyy.
this just a little small achievement of myself.

I started get compliment from boss :D
I start do less mistakes.
I start do things fast little bit
compare to the beginning time.



I'm not doing the best yet.
but I will try to do better and then become the best!



-The End-